Life

Hello World,

I have been away for a while, but that seems to be my motto...lol..I have been doing alot since the last time I blogged. I finally got rid of the paper job. THANK GOD!!!!!!!!I started going to school in October becasue I want a real place to call work. I am now going to school full-time and working full-time...Life has been a roller coaster for me this past year and it is now 09. I am looking forward to many changes and hopefully all will be good but most may be very hard for me to get through. I will not give up on myself and will push to make my life the life I know I deserve. I do have hope with the new president in office that anything these days are finally possible. I hope to keep writing more on a consistant basis since this seems to help get through some days. I will report back soon on how LIFE is going.

Full-Time Life

I currently took on a second (part-time) aka (full-time) job which has consumed my life with work work work and the occasional shut eye. I like so many these days have been backed into a corner and are scrambling to find a way out. I was in a position that I was unprepared for....lol... and that is never like me :-). Well this position was a financial bind that I had seen coming for a long time and I wasn't in shock when it finally caught up with me. This had me asking for overtime at work just to live paycheck to paycheck and there was none to be given so I started looking in the paper for a second job. I didn't look long since my options were limited and I found the perfect job....ha ha.... should have known. The job was a paper route and my friend has a route in Corpus and I thought if she can do it and be a full-time student I could do it. I called the number in the paper and talked to Max and I should have known that I was in for a big surprise when he barley asked me my name and in the same breath asked when I could start. I of course asked a couple of questions like how much do I make, how many hours a night will it take, and when do I get paid. He told me 5-6 hundred a week, 4 hours top a night and I get paid every monday. This sounded like exactly what I needed to get myself out of this bind and maybe even put some money away. I started right away cause the bills weren't going anywhere. The first couple of days weren't too bad because I started on a weekend and didn't have to go to my day job. I should have known that this may not be a dream job when I was given a contract to sign saying I have to give a 45day notice....lol....I swear I couldn't make that figure up. The first week was alright not too bad, nothing to complain about but wasn't told that the paper order was almost cut in half because of a holiday. The second week as soon as I picked up the paper I knew it was going to be a long week when I got 200 additional papers...lol...My hours doing the paper went from 4-5 hours to 6-7 hours ugh already over what I was told. I was getting home at almost 8 a.m. and getting up by 10:30 a.m to get to my other job and so started my Full-Time Life. I have been doing the paper almost a month now and I hate it all together cause I sleep maybe 4 hours tops a day and they are broken up in increments of 2hrs a piece I am doing it about 6-7 hours a day and I saved the best for last I owe the paper money...... ha ha ha WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!! I think no actually I know that I am worse off then when I started. I will say this has been a life experince to say the least. I think since we all know I have a 45day notice to give them and I owe them money I will be able to talk about the life of being a newspaper guy for a while.... ha ha ha.....more to come

Life at Work

I know its been a while since I have been on but hence the title life at work. My life has been crazy as I am sure everyone else as well. I went to an open mic show the other night and I loved it. There was a poet there that read to us and I wish I could remember his name or title of the poem but I think it really hit home. I know I am like tons of people out there that work for a huge place and no matter what they say you are just another badge number there to do there work. I realized with his poem that it sounded like he was talking about me. Wow really a random stranger talking about my life.... ha ha..... Then I thought wow its not just me that feels like this......... I wake up every morning and jump in the shower coaching myself..its going to be a good day and don't worry what the caller says and don't get pissed off because your boss is a bitch and you neighbor won't shut up. Then I get dressed and on the way to work blast my music wishing I was driving to a great distant place to go on vacation and then I pull up to the one place that makes my blood boil. WORK!!!!!!!! I go in and since I don't keep how I feel about you inside its not all fake smiles coming my way its glares and gossip....lol... which I am fine with cause I am there to make a check on go on my way. I sit down and I have not been clocked in for more then 3 min. I am already talking about my first break, lunch. last break and home...if its Friday I am talking about the weekend...lol... The calls never stop and as the day goes on you start flipping your screen off, pulling your hair, getting up cause that call really got you worked up and ignoring the neighbor that doesn't take the hint of me saying stop talking to me, means shut the fuck up..... hey I know my boundaries I can't freely express how I feel there is a lovely little place called HR....by the time its time to go home you have a headache, but boy are you glad to be out of HELL and ready to get your drink on, smoke on, or whatever you do you are ready to do it. Then you go to bed and when you wake up you are there to do it all over again. I have asked myself this over and over why do I do this to myself, why do I keep coming back day after day, I hate it and is this punishment for something I have done in my life. Well if you have the answer please let me know cause life can't be all about work or at least not about work you hate to do.

Why are people shady

This is a question that may never be answered and one that is rarely asked. I don't understand why people pretend to be interested in you, your life, and then turn around a talk shit about you. I am one to sit back and watch and learn and I will see the type of person you really are. I tell you how it is even if you don't like it and if you don't like that well thats your problem not mine. I may not be the smartest, fastest, funniest, cutest, person around but at least I keep it real. I have a friend that is devoted, caring, loveable, an all around great person. They tell me that a group of boys has rolled into town wanting to take the cake and steal the thunder....... ha ha .... because you are who? These boys lets say they play real nice in front of my dear friend the usual you look nice today or oh how are your projects going in that condescending high pitch voice. Then as soon as my friend is gone the bitch comes out of these boys and I am sure things are said that would make the devil blush. I am here to say stop being shady if you don't like them then don't talk to them. I think life is better without shady people and society doesn't have time for bitter bitches or the childish games that come with these people.

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